21-06-01

is starting in a few months…the 7th decade in my life…there is something sad about it..quite melancholic..because I feel it is a decade where I am in a situation when I am going into a new chapter in my life…maybe even a book. I am again leaving so many things, people, places behind…but this time because of the 7th decade it feels so final. I am not so sure if I will ever see any of these places and people anymore….in a way it is a decade of falling away..passing on…passing away….I will hear of past people that once I been close to…gone on to the next life..

And maybe I will be one of thoose that will me measured out and found wanting…who knows when the reaper passes? Anyway it feels that so much of sorrow, sadness, melacholy…this coming decade.

Having made the descion that I have made now moves me so far away from my past both mentally, physically, geographically…and cuts the ties….but still in the memory it is still there and I will be watching from a far distant…hear the news..know that once I was a part of all that…but is no more..and I cannot bring it back,,,wake it up..revive it..I tried but it did not try me, include me…maybe because I am the one I am. Maybe it was me that was not including.