sometimes I feel like my feelings are like an amputaded leg or arm or something like that. The feeling when you have lost your leg does not take away the sensation in your nerve-ends. It must be a horrible feeling to experience. Your brain say it is there and your physics tell you it is not. I have heard people feeling the sensation that your foot is itchy and you want to scratch it but it is not there. Terrible!
So this is sometimes how my feelings are now. I have somehow mutilated some of my feelings sort of….To be in touch with yourself is a popular saying, but what does it really mean? Sometimes I ask myself which one? ”Yourself/personality” is to me a multicoloured palatte! Because sometimes my feelings tell me one thing depending on my mood! (By the way mood is a very interesting word!) What I mean is that sometimes I can actually go against what I thought yesterday and I really cant explain why. The only reason or explanation is that I have several ”yourself”! How do I explain/defend this odd statement/remark?
First of all we have multiple lifes! Work, social, private, intimate, sober-drunk, moving(changing environment) and more! Not to mention how we change by age. One very important factor that can suddenly throw every thing up in the air! Health or rather no health! I also know by experience that when traumatic things happen in life it also affects ones personality/yourself!
Another remark that you often get confronted with is ” You are not yourself today!” So who am I then, if not yourself/myself?
Anyway some of my thoughts and reflections!