My reason for starting this blogg is to in this way share my experiences and my love for Colombia and the latin continent,  South-America! It will involve all aspects of life….love….passion…history…..economy….politics….geograhy…culture…music…and much more….

It is not a short story but a long story that will never end……

Colombia is more than just a country, just like life has many level!

even a parrot needs a fork!
even a parrot needs a fork on occasion!

modern world..

…it is so amazing to think and expect that the human race has evovled and come to a higher level of understanding…wisdom! have learned from history…the mistakes…the pitfalls….history…

Yet today we are on the same way of destruction…most of all people with no insight, understanding or wisdom to see the big picture (by the way I am in no way THE big understanding of the BIG picture!) I just know it is out there somewhere, at least I hope!

Anyway my aspiration is to constantly reach out for the bigger picture…bigger than me…there is an understanding/wisdom beyond mine! I have found this in the small things of every day life as well when I am dealing and struggling with my own battles of so called wisdom/knowledge. As long as I realise/understand this, my journey is never ended…because there are no frontiers or borders when it comes to comprehend or understand something or anything.

What is important is that your approach is objective/neutral….I am just an object in the bigger picture….together with other ”objects” trying to evaluate a problem or ….

anyway in my above defense….I have never seen more stupid..ignorant..uneducated…people as of today….It is just stupidifating! In my world…I just cant understand how the mass of population act/react to some of todays issues!!!

asset or liability?

…has Always been to me a balancing question…because there are so many factors involved….I have an opinion of you…you have an opinion of me…you think that you know me…I think I know you…. I make a my preconceived ideas who you are and you make the same of me etc.

The problem in alllll of these self constructed analysis/selfmade constructions/ideas, you think that it is so/and I think that it is so! And then you share these ideas/opinions with others like it is some kind of truth…of this person and guess what..I do the same.

I am the first to confess to fall into this trap…and I do it allll the time. Sometimes out of convinence…it it better to shut up then to ”put your foot in the mouth” and sometimes because I honestly think it is so, because the person that have these ideas/opinion is a friend (not a close friend, which is a difference)…that make me go along and sometimes I dont know why?? Ask yourself how many times you are in this situation.

I have a concrete example…at work I am a professional that actually are not allowed to voice your personal opinion and you are subject to a professional identity! So what happens? Sometimes the person…that are a client/patient etc..has strong opinions about something that is completly against your own beliefs and principales! Can you voice them? No you cannot!

But I still consider myself an asset..and not a liability! Sometimes in Life you have to balance your account/life and come to some sort of conclusion. Of course you can add your liabilities (which I have plenty) but where does thoose get you? When you are at my age it is time to add your assets…where did I go right..made the right descions…the right turns…! And I think with allll the wrong I made some things right!

So yes I think of myself an asset to life…how about you?

The best asset in life is to be able to say ” You were right and I was wrong..” then you are still a person that are alive!

Dark ages in the 21st Century?

With the ongoing developements in the world it looks like we are going into what looks like a ”new” dark age like the 15 and 16th Century dark ages. It is scary that we dont learn from history and how we can repeat history without seeing the obvious signs. So what are the signs? First of all the ongoing pandemic that we are going through is like the pandemic that killed so many people in thoose days…and it went on for years…killing thousands of people.

Another sign…the ongoing financial crisis with pan economical consequenses that in its own way are a crisis. Why it is so dangerous is that it involves the 2 strongest economies in the World right now…USA and China. They are both fighting for World domination as a global currency. So far just about every trade…every Exchange..every transfer has had its base in the dollar. The dollar has been the currency that have enabled the World trade we have today. Of course there are are other like the euro and the English Pound but they are not even near the dollar as a trade currency.

So now the Chinese see a possibility to become that standard currency…and they are aggresivly moving their positions forward. How can they do that? Quite easy…how many companies have their manufacturing in China right now? How many things that we buy today says ”Made in China”, maybe in small letters but nevertheless it is made in China. In this way the western World have made themselfes dependent on China…without knowing the consequenses. Sometimes cheap can be very expensive! And now China is starting to send the bill in form of that we did not expect. Look what they are doing to Hong-Kong with the new security bill. Dark ages! And they are buying up properties all over the World, investing in countries infra structures, taking over companies etc etc.

Then there are other signs/factors to the equation and that is the rising of despots…Putin, Erdogan, Bolzonaro, Orban, Duterte, Trump, Duque, Lukasjenko, Hassad to mention a few…countries on the way..Poland, Bulgaria, Romania, Malta, Egypt, Zimbabve, Saudi Arabia and the whole arabian penisula, Iran, Burma, Thailand, Uganda…the list can be extended.

The idea is that we are now living in the 21st Century?? The enlightened generation…the know-it-all generation… or are we living in the 16th century mentality?

What upsets me most is that many of thoose mentioned above are elected to their posts and this mean what? Voted to Power by the people! Democracy has voted its own downfall! Amazing! We humans are so contradictory….! In a way we are a flock ”animal” and can easily become one…and just look at Trumps US how he have created the flock mentality….But the down side of flock mentality is that everything is black OR white (not racial colours), we or them, it you are not for me, you are against me mentality …polarisation, populism..etc.

And the rest you can find in reset history how Hitler came to power and the consequnses of this…the problem today is that we have many potential Hitlers in the World now!

So prepare for the Dark Ages of the 21st Century!


we have found a vaccin against covid 19?? and then he goes out to brag about how his own daughter got vaccinated??? who is she? and if it was so safe…why did not he take the vaccination, because he is in the riskgroup?? did he really think or Believe the World would buy this? maybe his own fellow country men/because the state own the media..but the rest of the World…I dont think so! When you are a despot (like so many worldleaders today), and by definition Putin is a despot today! So when a despot comes with such a claim…WE HAVE THE VACCINATION AGAINST COVID 19 AND MY DAUGHTER IS VACCINATED!!HALLLLLLUJAH! I think this hallelujah gets stuck in the throat. When a despot delivers a message like this to the World….nobody is going to take it seriously….even if it is true!

would I take the vaccin… way! stuff it up Putins ass and see what happens.

the sad thing is the despot never see himself (seldom herself) in this light…I cant understand how they dont know that history will Catch up with them…because even a despot is mortal.

Nobody cares…

…is really a sad, selfpity, poor me…who cares…why? I have been writing these pages and everything for years….but who cares? can be counted on my 5 fingers..amazing…when you think you have something worthwhile to say, write, share…it is really nothing!

So is it nothing? well obviosly not, because otherwise these words would not be here….so why do I consider them NOT NOTHING?

The ironic beginning is a little poooooor me, but really it is not! Why? Well I started writing this whole Blogg not to proclaim myself…promote myself or anything else. I just wanted a channel to unload what is on my mind instead of writing on facebook or other social media.

Well I have to admit that a little attention does not hurt to boost the selfesteem. Maybe people are reading but not commenting? I dont know! Anyway I like the anonymous way of life. As I wrote is not for me but for my children I write this, because somehow after my passing away maybe they would like to know more about me and who I was.

I started to discover this about my parents while they were still alive and got to learn some stories about their life. I am so glad for this, because in some ways it helps me understand who I am.

So I started this to help them in the future…when they get old…sit down and read this and maybe understand why they are the way they are. And expecially why I was the way I was.

Existentialism, religious, believer..

..are all kind of definitions for our use to help us using words to give life meaning. In essence they are just words that are trying to express a deeper more profound sentiment! Hmm…. sentiment another interesting word! I found one definition that came close ”an idea colored by emotion” beautiful! Cant get enough of this definition/explanation.

But back to the initial title…I really dont know if I am only one of three? I am more likely all! If I come into a conversation revovling around existensialism I can go around this without involving religion (though I find it Hard) because my basic belief and respect is that everyone are entitled to their own belief/faith/opinion. I try to as long as it does not conflict with some of my basic fundamental beliefs of every humans right of existense regardless of colour , belief, creed, language, culture……..

People that cannot accept these basic fundamental Rights (above mentioned) are hardly worth my time.

how Close is the thruth to a lie or vice versa…

.how close the truth is to a lie? is a lie sometimes better than the truth? and in this case? how?

we always almost declassify the lie! Why? We use it daily in our Lifes…it is scientificily proven! So why does a LIE put us in an awkward/discomfortalble postion!

So on the other counterpart we have the TRUTH or is it a LIE?

Of course in the best of Worlds the TRUTH wins over the poor lie!

I am using the lie as a way to not say the whole truth often…and sometimes I dont know if it really is a lie? I have a friend that I dont trust 100% or feel that we have not come so far in our friendship where I feel that I am comfortable to tell him/her everything. So the lie is or not saying everything is my way of avoiding the whole truth. I dont feel bad about this and I know very well that I use the lie to cover up the truth. In my defense I must say it is not in very important matters but in some everyday things.

My defense is ”it is not his business” to know everything what is going on in my life,,,so the lie is comfortable instead of not saying anything. Sometimes I avoid answering the questions…is this a lie? In a way, because if you conciously avoid the answer that you know and slide away on a sidetrack….is this a lie?

I just think as a defense of the lie it is not so bad like everybody tries to make it sound. In my eyes I am also protecting him/her from hearing the truth which might be too much at the moment.

These are lies on a everyday basis and of course not when the lie becomes a tool to gain power over other people….like Hitler did and many of todays world leaders…this is using the lie to manipulate people to your idea….and the world is full of them today…manipulative leaders.

and one more thing…I am not a perpetual lier and think that I go around lying all the time…I am still a lover of the truth….but there was somebody that once said….”the truth? you are not strong enough to handle the TRUTH so shut up!”


i was only 16 going on 17 with a lot of Peace and Love in my life…but Little did i think and know about what really was going on around me. I called myself a concious person…aware and knowing what was going on!

But watching this programme on TV remembering what really happened 1968…it was a terrible violent terrible year and I just lived in Peace and Love. By the way my Peace and Love was drugs and rock´a roll! And a few more things. It is strange you call the years 67, 68 and end up with Woodstock 69 as I would call it the Love years.

Lets focus on the year of 1968…a lovely year?? nope! Lets start with the Prague spring..a wonderful revolution got stamped out by Sovjetunion because they got to free…what a paradox especially if you know the excuse from the a sovjet soldier as to why they motivated this invasion.

But one of the most horrific events this year took Place in Mexico that hosted the Olympics this year…because behind the scene was a quiet student revolt wanting a more transparent democracy. Just days before the inauguration of the Olympic Games of 1968 in Mexico City there was a demonstration in a square in Mexico City…what happened? Peaceful demonstrators were violently attacked by soldiers with machinguns and helicopters….the number of deaths?? They were so many that the square had to be cleaned with strong water canons for hours because of all the blood. Peaceful, loving people asking for Peace and understanding!! The reason? The goverment wanted to show that a Peaceful Olympic Games could take place! Can you see the paradox?

So these are 2 things….Lets move on to Vietnam…1968 is considered to be one of the most violent years in the Vietnam war…and then you can imagine what happened and how many lifes it cost…it is just Amazing how a tranquil,,,easy going…fishing village (been this for centuries) can be totally bombed and destroyed…WHY? because someone high up there in the hierchy decided that this village is the centre of a military command…how many people died…not interesting…just numbers! (see the irony of this?)

And a few minor things…Robert Kennedy got assasinated…Martin Luther King got assasinated….People that tried to be and make a difference.

It took me a few years to realise the reality of this year…but now looking in the mirror I can say…Yes I remember! But as a 16 year old…living life and doing the things I did….I dropped out of school..went sailing on a cargo ship to South America…life for me was Peace and Love…but not in the world!

The lesson? The world today 2020 is not a peaceful world! Have we learned? No! It is even worse of today than it was 1968! So in comparision to 2020 maybe 1968 was Peace and Love…this to make us understand how bad the world is today.

are we getting wiser with all the knowledge we have today? dont kid yourself…we are getting more stupid!

John Lennon…

..wrote a song happy xmas! The message in this song is loud and clear. It is a cyninism against the whole celebration of Christmas, yet artists, singers make it a ”normal” Christmas song??? The last One I listened to was Celine Dions version with some traditional picture motives, My honest reaktion to this cover version is that John Lennon would never have approved of this interpretation of his song and its message. I believe he would turn in his grave!

I agree totally….when in my late teens or early 20s I had a different Christmas experience that kind of helped me understand and relate to Johns song. It was after My drugyears or att least in the last days before I quit. To understand my reaction to this experience one has to know that I had been taken both cannabis and Lsd for quite a few years. So this the background/the setting of how I experienced this particular walk/situation….this evening…..walking the streets alone……in my hometown all alone at night…. temperature below zero……snow everywhere/beautiful… decorations with their bright lights…..and last but not least ALL and EVERY shop window filled with merchandise of every kind!

I had since some time back started to reflect about exestenialism and meaning of life and in some ways or words become a little religious. In a way this was/became my way out of drugs! Anyway this evening…just before Christmas….totally sober….under no Influence….(they say that you can have some after”trips” from Lsd or even cannabis.!? I dont know?

In the middle of the street in my hometown, cold snowy/winter night..all alone..and this is the truth. I cried out….”Jesus how misunderstood you have been!”

So in conclusion… John Lennon…I understand your song and as I once wrote…I rather hear this song on the street sung by a simple street musician than in a great concert hall sung by the already rich and famous!

Peace and Love…

…I have noticed that this is Ringo Starrs Main message, but I have another conclusion/thought about this!

I have come to a new realisation as to what these 2 words can be related/connected to. For me it all started with the Beatles and what a tremendous group this was and totally outstanding. I am the living proof of this, having followed them from day ONE when their first single game out. From that day on they were the greatest Influence in my life! Their songs, music and lyrics just made my world different.

With every album came something new…..and I mean new. They always surpassed every expectation. I could go on and on about this and nearly in detail describe this album-journey. If you were not there att the time, in the moment it is just impossible to relate to. It was Magic!

So the breakup of the Beatles was a really really a sad moment, a tragedy. How could this happened? If it was the Rolling Stones or some other band it would be easier to understand, but the Beatles?? It was impossible and yet it happened. It took some time to digest this but it was soon forgotten. Why?

Out of this came 4 strong independant musical musicans/artists. When the soloalbum with George Harrison ”All things must pass” came out I was sold on him and his message of Love and existenial questions/answers. This album came just at the right time in my chaotic, turbulent, crazy life. It helped me to understand that life is more than what meets the eye and the ear. I could go on and on about how this album came just at the right time. So thank God Beatles brooke up otherwise George Harrison would never have happened. And his message of Love!

Now to the other beatle that made a difference but in a different way yet like a complement to George Harrison. John Lennons message of Peace are one of the strongest peace messages ever presented/preached by any artists. John Lennon made it simple and clear…..there was no sugar coating the message. It was not only the lyrics that was straighforward but also the music was raw and almost naked. There was no mistaken what he wanted. I loved this way of making music and how music can make a difference!

In short summary…..the split up of Beatles was a blessing in disguise when these 2 individual artists/musicans/activists etc otherwise would not have come into their full capacity! Sad to say that they died/murdered way to early. The world lack voices like George Harrison and John Lennon.

To me they are still a beacon in my world, a comfort to My troubled soul.

(Paul McCartney and Ringo Starr are great artists but in my eyes not the way George and John were)

Of course this could be much longer and more elaborate but I think the message is herr and I made my point!