for me it is the biggest mystery how we are as a race..humans..and we cannot find a way to be humans..how in the world can we come to a common denominator.. I have tried to understand and analyze what always complicate this way of uniting us and there are many…language, culture, history, colour etc…thoose are things that are easy to understand and also easily explained. What is more difficult to explain is why people that have common language, culture, history etc…still have a problem to agree and understand. Even within families that are the closest of structures..there can be big conflicts and differences. This really troubles me..as a human! Why! What troubles me on both the macro level and micro level is that it is happening on both levels. The strange thing is that the direction is set..because on the macro level…world politics/economics the world is set on  course of many conflicts meaning war to the point that the global warming will come in the backwater. We have more crisis in the world more urgent than the climate crisis. On the macro level/the world…we are on the way to a polarisation not ever known before. And it is a self destructive developement. This is human race on the macro level. On the micro level/my life…I have to come to understanding how difficult I am..especially now and the situation I am in now. So I can blame the situation. To understand it is important to know that I am not feeling so good right now. I am in a transitional phase. The phase I have been in is not a good phase. I moved to this small place away from a situation that was too much for me. Running away? No! I had enough of this place which was my old town…my place of birth. my God this is such a big subject…I dont know how to finish it right now! I realise that there are toooo many parameters to finish it in just a few sentences….especially on the micro level. I feel like I might look like a confused person to many people I meet. Maybe because many of my meetings right now are very incoherent/spontaneous…not making sense…trying to say too many things in few sentences…i am out of practice…probably confuse people…they tend to distance themselfes from me… My need for social contact can appear/seem somewhat intense…and so when I get rejected…not because of my what I say but because of my intensity in how I say it. In a way this fits into my analyse of human relation/connections/meetings on the micro level. Intensity in the way we communicate can be a disturbance on the receiving end of the communication. My way of intensity I feel is sometimes my weakness..why people distance themselfes from me…But still this is I!! So am I at fault in this trying to be a mentor of humans…or a mismatch? Can I contribute to the human race or am I just a fly on the wall …a crazy thought among another 1.000.000 thoughts and maybe billions. Because on the micro level there are soooo many thoughts and differences… maybe even more than on the Macro level ….