I have come to an understanding and maybe also a conclusion of my anger…I feel that I have a lot of anger inside me …especially against injustices and also a lot of the white mans history…etc.

But my anger is mine…and it is up to me to define it and also put it into words,,,it is not that I am going around angry and punshing people in the face whereever I go…NO! My anger is awaken when I read certain events, news, stories etc…I can feel that my anger is motivated, just and even right. But this is why anger is so important to be expressed,,and have the chance to be answered. This does not mean your anger will be subdued or compromissed. NO WAY! But this might help your anger to become recognised as a ruling factor in some descions that are to be made.

Anger to me is a channel for me to blow steam, so to say….where the chips fall where they may….

in addition to this I would like to add about my brain if there is anything left of it or it is all being cremated and consumed by all my choices that I have made in life..all the turns some 90degrees and some 180 degrees…and more.. twisting my braincells into a mumble jumble..never letting them have peace…and tranquility…like a chase for something I dont know what… Well at least you can say I am chasing..moving,,travelling etc…learning new things..people, cultures, languages, food, geography, history, climate…etc ..you name it. And all of this my poor brain is having to put up with. Of lately it seems to backfire at my emotions and my brain is giving my emotions hell for what they have done. Yes there is some peace and ceasefire at moments…but it is nearly always with the brain in charge. I have to be careful with alchohol and have definetly stopped with strong alcohol..like whiskey, gin and alllll drinks. I am even careful with wine now and nearly stopped that also. I enjoy beer but only at a very low quantity I have come to realise. Alcohol kind of triggers my emotions and kind of put the brain on the backburner and only serves as a tool for the emotions. It is funny but I come to realise this more and more lately. Had an incident the other day that just proved how poorly the emotions can take over ..especially when I had a beer too much. Nothing violent but some words came out of my mouth that should not have come out.