21-04-12

..is complicated…because control to me is more of securing other peoples lifes..be a lifeline for other people..first of all my children..if they ever were in need..financially or spiritually…and I have involved myself with quite a few other people and organisations…mainly financially. But once you start to support/help/assist…or whatever…you cannot backdown..so I am in control!! but in a way that kind of put me in the back seat..beacause the ones that really control are in the front seat. The only problem is that they cannot ”control” unless I keep sending them the funds to fill up the ”fuel/gasoline”. Hey Torbjörn…I am driving but we are running out of gas…and I say..of course….Fill it up! Have I lacked anything from my backseat view..not a thing, on the contrary! Ihave had more than I could ever think of..but I never thought of accumalting a great wealth…sometimes I wish more wealth..because I spontainously give all the time…but I wish that I could be the Santa Claus in many more peoples lifes….. Anyway right now I can support a few people and organisations…my godchild/since 11years(barefoot foundation).a single mother with a child(not my child)…my fiance(not everything)..my own son…doctors without borders,,,playing for change,,,colombia reports…avaz…and there are always spontaneous donations every month as well. So yes I am in control…but is this another definition of control?