… are the most searched for common denominators… In a collection of people… The most sought after when you meet… Is the laugh/smile… It releases so much tension and unites us in a way that few other things do… Because it is pure positive energy 😉 💋

The hard thing is if you try to lighten up the mood with a crack/joke and their is absolutely no response. The air get so thick you can cut it with a knife. I call it the anti-joke response and it is devastating. The worst thing is that the joker tries to force it by explaining or excusing him/herself. The result can be worse and the joker is digging himself deeper into the hole.

Then you can also be in the company where there is a strong leader, a dominating person…so when somebody is cracking a joke they look to the leader if he laughs or make a recognition of the joke…then everybody else can start laughing.

Imagine yourself in room with Trump and trying to crack a joke (and it can be very funny) but everybody will look to Trump so see if he approves of the joke. Just think how it was when you had Hitler and his moods trying to crack a joke! Could cost you your life..especially if the joke was in anyway sarcastic.

Well now we come into what kind of jokes there are. Sarcastic jokes that can be aimed at one person that maybe does not like to be joked at or about. Everybody laughs but you unless you are a person that can take jokes and are a genourous giving person. I think the best jokes are when you joke about yourself and your own shortcomings and mistakes. Instead of attacking other people with jokes about their mistakes and shortcomings.

Much more to say about jokes but as I have experienced it…a joke can be the ice breaker into a good communication.

…can sometimes feel like years..when you are waiting for something..pain, anguish, anxiety does not take a break but is there to be felt every second. This is one time you wish that the seconds would turn into years so maybe the pain, anguish, anxiety would be gone..and be in the past. The moment/secónd does not give hope only the hope of another year gone by. So Carpe Diem….can in this context mean Hell!

I have just bought 3 posters that shows the far away universe, Photos taken from the hubble telescope. Amazing photos with colours and forms that just cannot be expressed in words. Many thoughts come to mind and reflections…

Beside my 3 posters is my wall-clock ticking away seconds and my contemplation is…does time exist in this part of the universe? does seconds tick away or is this a too small of measurement where we normally talk in terms of millions of light years. What is a second in the universe? Can anything happen in one second? Or is it in the second everything happens and then become milllllllions of seconds!

I kind of get lost in these 3 posters, 50x50cm, that potrays an infinite universe. They are so small and try to capture something so big that it kind of make me want to take them down, because they dont really resembles the reality. It is like peeking into a keyhole of a door and trying to understand everything on the other side by looking through this tiny keyhole. And you think you got the answer. Such a delusion especially if you think that you know it all. Because everything on the other side of this keyhole is in constant change and the next time you look the picture has changed and you dont know why or what or when…You are just filled with more questions and less answers….and it just happens in a second in the milllion, billlion, trillllion years to come.

.. many or most people when they come of age ask themselfes many questions like WHY DID I LIVE? (a very sad contemplation 😪), WHAT WAS IT THAT I COULD HAVE DONE AND DIDNT? (many people procrastinate.. and it is too late 😧), and last but not least is one question that I am often asked IF YOU COULD LIVE YOUR LIFE AGAIN WITH WHAT YOU KNOW NOW… IS THERE ANYTHING YOU WOULD CHANGE? 🤔

I have put this question to myself (the other 2questions are simple to answer.. I have fulfilled both 😄). The question if there is anything that I would change requires some thought because either way you answer this question it needs a motivation.

If I dont regret! Why, how come, you mean your life was perfect…!!! And if I say that I regret than they say AHA that is what I thought all the time!

Of course it depends upon who is asking the question. If it is a person that know you from a long time or if it a person you just meet! And a lot of other variables that are too many to be mentioned here. Man-Woman, old-young, background etc.

are 2 things that keep us here on earth..without airresistance no gravity..no gravity No airresistance.

I am looking at my new posters, photos taken from the Hubble telescope, showing what the outer space of the universe look like. Fantastic images/photos taken from the Hubble.

So when contemplating, meditating, thinking….it came to mind that at least these 2 things are missing, airresistance and gravity! Att least this is my theory. So then I continued contemplating….how does things work without these 2 forces/laws of nature that are so essential for our survival?

It got me into thinking and wondering how the universe works without these 2 forces? Are there other laws or are there gravity without airresistance? We also have centrifugal power that keeps us in orbit. But in a way it is the ”pull” from the sun which in a way is a combination of speed and gravity. The Satellites are kept in orbit with these 2 forces, speed and gravity. My theory!

Anyway these photos got me into thinking how does planets work in their interaction with each other. what keeps them from just crashing into each other constantly??

what forces do we need in life to have an existense apart from oxygen(air), water, food…things that are merely physical. For me the inner person need a lot and is more demanding..love, attention, social context, understanding and more… We are so vulnerable and so easy to forget the inner person that can

… what is an impostor.. or who is an impostor?

I had a misconception of this word and in a way have seen it only in a negative context. It is not always really like this but can also be a negative perception of how one see oneself.

We can all be confused about our own personality, identity, charachter in short WHO AM I? We are all impostors in one way or other.

If I dont have or can give a clear answer to this, than in a sense I AM AN IMPOSTER. Not because I am an evil person or premeditate being someone else, it is only because I dont know who I really am. Thereby I fulfill the meaning of being an imposter right now, because for the moment I really dont know who I am… but I am on the road, path to get there. I hope I will get there before the grim reaper gets me.

Being an impostor to its extreme exctenct could be called a sociopat or psychopat. A disease/sickness and at that a very dangerous one.

But there are many everyday impostor happenings…You go to work and impostor one person/quality of yourself….You come home and you are the impostor family father/mother if you have a family and are living with someone….You go to the pub and meet with your friends..impostor under the influence of alcohool….You come to another country/culture/language and you become a tourist impostor…

All this above are the natural everyday impostor, a reality for all of us. The most important question in your impostor life is if you are truly satisfied/happy/content/confident or just do it without knowing why or even asking yourself WHY I AM DOING ALL THIS? FOR WHO? FOR MYSELF? these are questions you must ask yourself one day! The sooner the better, but dont be surprised if the answer you get is a question right back at you…I DONT KNOW!

I am at crossroads with my own impostors…who I am and/or what will it become of me? My past impostors have put me here…writing this..quite alone again…wondering what will come next!

One thing is for sure…I CANNOT STAY HERE! This is my firm conclusion. I am not happy or content in this impostor role…for many reasons. I am contemplating a lot about my past and why/what brought me here to this point in my life. One thing is how I make descions and decide to act upon them. I have quite an emotional personality that is kind of the truest impostor/role/charachter in my life and makes me do the things I do. To many people (so I believe) I probably look like a little crazy or of-the-hook personality. Not schizofren(far from it) but very sensitive and have probably(for sure) become even more sensitive throughout my aging years. When you grow old you are supposed to know more…but I seem to know less. Like the saying is ”the more you know and learn, the more you know how little or nothing you actually know”! So my knowledge is…I dont know very much at all!

people with faucets of gold…what if there came no water?

people with 15 bedrooms….do they sleep better? do they have any dreams

people with 20 cars….do they have a better life? does it make them a better driver

people who complain that their beef was raw…..do they know how to eat beans? or enjoy the glas of fresh water

people who buy 500dollar shoes…do they know how to go barefoot on hot ground? do they know how to feel the grass under their feet?

people who have 100.000 dollar watches – do they know better how to tell time? do they know better to evaluate time?

…as we listened to the blonde on blonde….like we were in a church in a place of worship…the room was dark…the smoke was thick…the spirits were high…we played it over and over…like a mantra…that we wished never ended…did it?

I dont think so…because I am still there…when the oxygen was so low that the candles went out….we breathed another air…another life came that never left…still is here….like a story that still is being written…the book is not closed….yet!

…when I think about latinamerica (and in some ways northamerica) and centralamerica…they are still colonised by original spanish population. The so called liberation with Simon Bolivar as the great liberator. In my world ”liberation from what?”. Because when Simon Bolivar made his revolution against the spanish he forgot one thing. He did not throw out the colonisator…the ethnic spanish population.

In Africa when the colonisation ceased the power was returned to the original population for good and for bad. But that is what happened. There were some examples in Africa that took some time before it happened like South africa and Zimbabwe(former Rhodesia) and maybe a few more but it happened anyway. That is another story!

Anyway in every country in South America and Central America it is still the colonizer that is in power, both economically and political and in some ways cultural. I have Colombia as an example…the discrimination in this country is so extreme and it was in this country the ”revoution” with Simon Bolivar started. As a curiosa it was in this part of SouthAmerica that the first colonial city was founded, Santa Marta, by Rodrigo de Bastidas. So the colonisation and the looting of South America had begun…

The original population that consisted of many different people, cultures, languages etc. But what many had and a lot of…was gold and other precious minerals. The gold became the cause of one of the most terrible genocide and looting in the world history.

i have meditated about the 4 elements, will return to the 5th later, and their different status.

3 of them are self excisting..but one, fire, does not come so naturally like the other 3, earth, wind, water, are so to say selfexcisting wheras fire has a need of at least one of the other element, fire. in some ways fire also need earth for a place to excist,,,and funny enough,,,fire has a mortal eneymy, water!

So I make my thesis…how fire became and is considered among the elements being so elusive and not so to say selfexcisting! I will try to delve into this when time gives me room…and strenght. I am just merely planting an idea here so I have something to come back to later and develope.

the 5th element…philophers stone…that can turn led into gold!! in my world it is how you turn an idea into (not gold) reality…

and more more….