… personality! I was talking to a friend today about the likes and dislikes about ones personality! What do I mean? Well to put it simply, some people like you and some dislike you. To further this thought, I have my likes and dislikes as well about people. The point that I am trying to make and my self analyse is how people like or dislike me! I am definetly not an all in likeable person but I have also developed a likeable personality as well.

I have learned to know a lot of people in my life. They have come and gone and some have come back, whereas some have furthered and become more distant. Some people I have choosen to put in my distant relationship category, even to the point that I hardly say hello to them anymore. Living in a small town, 15.000 inhabitants, it is some times difficult to avoid the meeting, seeing each other on the street. I have reclassified these former close aquatinses to 3 distinct categories.  Number 1 category is the ones that I can stop and have a surface conversation about weather, family, general topics but nothing deeper. Number 2 category is just  a hello or a how are you but nothing more. Number 3 is nothing, it is like you are passing air. No show of sentiments or recognition even in my body language you would not detect any recognition!

Of course there are other categories as well and that is thoose that pass the above mentioned number ones! Family, close friends, workmates with which I have much closer and intimate communication. Being able to open up and be more honest/ vulnerable with. But there have been thoose that I have been intimate with and they have ended up in the above mentioned number 3 category. Sometimes they actually done this by their own choice or I have done it, especially if they have betrayed my trust and hurt me or my family (especially my kids) in a harmful or vicious way.

So now is my point, because all this that I mentioned above is happening to me as well! I am being treated exactly the same. This is where it is becoming interesting for me. I love to analyze myself and my own behaviour and how people react to me and form their opinion about me.

You and I are 3 persons! Number 1, the one you think you are, number 2 , the person others think you are and number 3, the person you really are! Number 1 and 2 are easy but the number 3 is the difficult one! How can you get at this one? It must be a combination of 1 and 2! So this is  my discourse and dilemma. How do you reach stage 3? This is why I wrote the above to kind of set the stage for discussion! How do you find out who you really are and can say that you know yourself?