i feel so strong that in some ways i am a very split personality…in some ways i am playing one role and then change into someone I dont recognise..and do things that are not me or is it me?  there is a troubled person living inside of me…damaged goods….too many changes in my life…need to rest..but cant..my melancholy is my best personality because it is my reflecting personality….trying to put things into perspective. As I grow older my life seem less and less meaningful. It is not that I have had a meaningful life, on the contrary, I have had a life that few can come close to. But this is not to put myself on some piedestal or glorify myself in any way. Just read my biography that I write under the titel ”Colombia and the story of my life!”. Here I try to write down my life story. So today my life seem to slowly pan out and the memories are becoming more important, instead of making memories. The nostaglic, remembering life is more and more on the agenda! This to explain or make some sense to the title ” damaged goods!”.