…in a dream…a song…a spring day, …an autumn day of colous…or even a cold snowy winter day….an ocean wave ..that will take me home…

am i here by chance or choice.??? my parents choice…my chance/luck/blessing/curse/chaos!!

I sit here in my lonely universe…drunk my wine…had my bath…thought my thoughts…tried some new..but still the same…back on number 1 ! why did I ever think I was more than a number 1?…because a number 2 was double from what I was…but who cared…who new…that saw the number !! A number 1 does not mean that I am better than anyone else….I am number 1 to myself..because I answer to myself first of all…I am responsible for my deeds, thoughts, words, decisions…

It is not easy to be number 1…can be very lonely..even depressing at times.