…so tired of it All! Not in a negative way but plain tired. What is the use of waking Up? Going through the motions, put your life on repetative and just go through the motions!

Sometimes I am not so sure about how excited I am about the journey anymore. Maybe I just want to get to the destination. I know there are much to live for and I know that there is more to live for than to die for, but this does not stop me from sometimes feeling  and thinking that it would be ok to get off and say that the journey was good, very good actually but reaching/arriving at the destination having had such a wonderful journey is also a big satisfaction. Life has been very good to me, an absolutely fantastic, magic journey that I would not trade with anyone!

And now my life has suddenly taken a turn that make me think even more if it is worth it! When you actually think that what you did was good but in the eyes of others and especially one person was utterly and without mercy condemned and because of this thing everything else also was thrown out! And I was condemned also by people I thought I knew and I also thought knew me! It is interesting how fickle the mind and psychic is! Anyway my conclusion is! It is again time to move on!

And this is what sometimes wear me out! The process! To be thrown out in the water and SWIM! Or drown/give Up! But l guess that I will swim because I dont like to drown!